I Ruined My Life, It's So Over

I ruined my life. It's so over Until last year I had been obese my entire life. I always assumed that once I lost weight I would start getting girls easily. So I lost about 80 pounds over a year and got into pretty good shape. But I was too fucking naive to realize that fit or fat doesn't matter if you're 5'7 and Indian. So over the next 6 months, I stay on the apps getting maybe 5 matches a month all leading to being ghosted. I remained a KHHV and I still have never been on a date in my life. Now, here's how I ruined my life. Basically, since I've been 18 (I'm 23 now) I've had a porn addiction, usually gooning for 4+ hours a day and giving myself death grip. Around 3 weeks ago I decided that I've had enough of just waiting for some random girl to match me and I decided to go to a foreign country for escorts. I lost my virginity to this Japanese girl the first day and I couldn't finish (but I mostly thought this was because I was super nervous). 2nd day the same thing happens with this Chinese girl. 3rd/last day I get a duo with these 2 Korean girls and I literally go soft as I'm hitting it from the back because there's not enough sensation. Literally the most humiliating moment of my life to have 2 Korean girls asking as I'm ok because my dick stopped working midway through. I literally broke my fucking dick by jacking it too much. Also, it burns when I pee now. I've been lurking this sub for ages and was planning on doing steroids to maybe get a chance of a girlfriend but what's even the point if I can't even fuck her. Also spent over 1k on girls and didn't even nut

A Reddit screenshot shows a young man describing his weight loss, lack of dating success, porn addiction, and disastrous attempts to lose his virginity abroad. The punchline is his exaggerated self-pity and humiliation: after spending over $1,000, he says he developed erectile and urinary problems and still did not have sex. It is shared as a dark, self-deprecating reaction to feeling hopeless, sexually unsuccessful, or having made life choices that backfire. EN: A Reddit screenshot shows a young man describing his weight loss, lack of dating success, porn addiction, and disastrous attempts to lose his virginity abroad. The punchline is his exaggerated self-pity and humiliation: after spending over $1,000, he says he developed erectile and urinary problems and still did not have sex. It is shared as a dark, self-deprecating reaction to feeling hopeless, sexually unsuccessful, or having made life choices that backfire.

• @eternalclassic / 80284 2025-12-14